This made me sad and happy and I just want to stop failing school. I’m doing my True Democratic essay (Thanks Kevin and Bonnie), but I’m getting distracted because everyone’s doingg so well, getting into so many great colleges (omg that Verona kid..) and I’m just here, stupid and failing. 

I remember I wanted to go to Yale.

I got a C on my math test and I cried in front of Busby today. She’s letting me do quiz corrections and I don’t know how that will help, but I fell so stupid. 

I also realized I had a 79 in history 2nd marking period. “It’s the teacher’s discretion to bump grades”. He could’ve but didn’t. I know why.

edit: I went to the TV room to get my bag, and my Valentine from Deane, plus my love notes from Sam were outside my bag. What the fuck.

Day _, Monday February 27

I had pit today from 5:15-7:00, and Dylan somewhat told me how I was doing great with this rhythm while he was killing it. Woo! 

Then my and other Admiral Dylan had a nice chat on Facebook.

I was worried about Sam during our first St. Patrick’s Day rehersal (also, I hope we got to Pal’s afterwards). Anyway, he was crying last night, apparently because I listen to other people’s problems but not his. I thought when he said that he meant his mom, but both are still saddening. I have to work on talking to him, but I need to focus on school..

On the topic of school, I’m worried about everything, primarily making a good impression on Shah, and bringing my Alg grade up. Oh, and I’m teaching Belle Algebra over the summer. I find it rude that she’s not even asking for my opinion on this though, oh well. 

Ashland trip tomorrow! Cheated on Stats hw btw…

Friday February 17 2012 Day __

Lol this is terrible.

No school today, and after much deliberation prolonged my weekly terror to tomorrow at 4. (aka that’s when my piano lesson is). Sam was supposed to come over for our 4 month, and I was supposed to make him the food in the bento box, but I never went to Shoprite and Arianne texted me asking to go running. So we went running and it was cold and Samuel and Arianne met. After Sam came to my window and I gave him censory dissinent cookies and an empanada. 

Saturday January 28 2012 Day 28

Oh jeez, so behind.

I hung out with Sam after pit. It wasn’t as nice as it was the first time that happened. I tried to make a picnic; we made out and it was awkward with people.

He’s a depressed panda, and I feel as though it might have to do with him mom.

Saw Sarah at DD.

So much studying for midterms… *cries*

Monday January 9; 9/366

I am so tired, but at least I’m somewhat caught up with this! I wish I could get my Stats/Alg2 grades up, but that isn’t going to happen. I’m disappointed in myself; goodbye raising GPA. I have a 66 in Stats and I don’t understand Chinese and I lost my book.

Albert came over, and some little kids apparently knocked at my window… I tend to look at people and want to put a pore strip on their face, so I did it to Albert and it was gross but TOTALLY worth it.

If I could, I would just sleep and watch vlogbrothers. 

January 6; 6/366

He hopped the fence because he thought he was going to be late for wrestling, but he actually didn’t have to be there until 3:45, haha. He was trying to put up a heart..

I am so lucky to have him, although I feel as though I made a bargain with myself saying that I’d rather have no boyfriend, get straight As, and make top 5%, but now I’m flipped.

Honestly, be careful for what you wish for.

Thursday January 5; 5/366 (posted 1/9)

I believe this is the day Mr. Kelly heard my dad and me screaming at each other, and then seeing me cry. I got the memory chip though, and got to take videos during Alg and chem. People (Marcus) were hyping my camera, and I felt kinda spoiled.

Wednesday January 4; 4/366 (posted 1/9)

This is actually a screen shot of a video Katie accidentally took of us. I really like him, and I wish we had become friends sooner. 

Woke up at 10:30, then went to Hannah’s at 11:30 to do the chem project. I thought I’d be home at 1:30 but I ended up staying till 6. It’s 8 now. There goes practicing bari, or learning math or chem, going ahead in stats, learning piano, or having Sam come over. Tita Jen is here now, and I really need to learn my quadratic song. Augh.

Sunday January 1, 2012

It was oh so very hard choosing which photo to publish, I’ll probably change this later! Anyway, happy new year! I was hoping to get off on a good start this year, but I already yelled at my family, sigh. There’s always tomorrow. Today I woke up at around 10:30, I finished rewritting my chem notes, and tomorrow’s probably Hannah’s house day, and music procrastination day. Woo!